4 More Days
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A Night At The Mayan Theatre by Rock Star INXS4 more days to go before I start working for new company. Somehow I have this very sad feeling leaving this company. Its saddens me to leave a great boss with some good colleagues..really it does...but it is so unfortunate that the management screwed up an exciting company.
Nevertheless, I just received an sms from the person over the other side saying that my appointment letter is ready for pick up. I am excited, happy and nervous at the same time. Even though I used to work for this company before, but the feelings still lingers in my heart. Come March 1st, I am officially taking a break from being a professional photographer for the time being and explore into
Public Relations cum Producer but I am still in the commercial photography industry.
I received a call from
Kid Chan (
www.kidchan.com). I sent him my resume a while ago but he did not reply so I figured that he is not interested. Then he had to call yesterday after I have confirmed my job with the new company. Why? I asked myself why...did he take a long time to call me. If only he would have called me earlier, I would have joined him to be a hell of wedding photographer.
Ah well...I guess the next 3 months will reveal whether I am cut out to be a
PR person or not.
Sleepless Nights
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Time After Timeby Eva CassidyWord Of The Day :Diddly :
A small or worthless amountLately I have problems sleeping at night and it has been going on for three weeks already. Until today I still do not know why. I try to go to sleep by not thinking of anything but somehow that failed. I tried counting sheeps...yeah an age old remedy to get a good nights rest by force, still that also did not work. I tried jogging at night in hope that I will tire myself out when I return and just drop dead on the bed but it did not help at all. In fact I got cute little doggies chasing me. I even tried putting on some sleepy music, that also didn't work. Jeez.....My friends kept telling me that I have imsonia but i refuse to acknowledge that fact. I keep denying to everyone and to myself that I have imsonia. I kept telling myself that I had too many teh tariks which resulted to my imsoniac state.
Somehow while I was wide awake at night laying on my bed, there are a lot of things keep creeping into my head. Some people do their thinking during the day time or when at night after dinner. I had to be one of the many unlucky bloke to have things creeping into my head after midnight. Thoughts like future plans, would I be able to earn enough to live comfortably, the good times and the bad times I've had and love...
Love the one thing that makes a person's world colourful or just plain grey. Many times I wish I could be that colourful person who could just splash colours into a person's life everyday. Colours makes things look more appealing and more interesting somehow.
Imagine a splash of new colours everyday for the rest of our lives. Wouldn't it be awesome. The unfortunate thing is that I was unable to maintain the colourful splashes and now living through the grey era and once we touched the monochromatic colour, there is no way we can erase the colour away completely. Even when you splash more colours, somehow there will always be a grey spot somewhere. I have no regrets being in love. The only regret is that in incapablity to sustain the colourful relationship all the time which causes me to loose people I love and have loved.
Forgive Me Please...There are nights I always thought of the
"What If" agenda.
"What if I studied harder?", "
What if I was not separated from my family?",
"What if I worked even more harder at work?",
"What if I have been more serious with God?",
"What if I have been a little more loving and effectionate in a relationship?",
"What if I trained on my football more?",
"What if I take my music practise a little more serious?". All these
"What If's" are some of the questions I always asked myself lately. Don't you all?
Are these sleepless nights a test for me to go through or is it just a phase in my life coming in and out over time? It really has been three weeks since the first night and I sometimes cannot stand tiny problem. A friend of mine told me take prozac...another told me to take cough medicine....I somehow never believe in gulping these tiny but yet powerful tablets unless I am down and out with fever or if I am
"touch wood" hit with health related problems. HECK!!! I never even finished my antibiotics before..(probably explains the reason why I fall sick often). I begin to feel tired, the act of laziness slowly begins to arise and worst of all the feeling of boredom starts creeping into my veins and my happy go lucky mental state.
If these goes on further, I think I shall succumb to taking those crazy pills they call prozac or maybe just go get
diddly cans of beers or probably stout. Drink till I drop.
CHEERS MATE!!!
How Would You Know When...?
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Eye To The Telescopeby KT TunstallHow would you know when... the CNY holidays are over?
It is when the bloody traffic jam is back
I guess this part of Kuala Lumpur lifestyle is somewhat the most prominant "thing" that you can witness. The traffic was smooth the whole of last week, well due to many KL residents leaving the city to go back to their hometowns and flock the roads there not forgetting to be with their loved one's. It used to be that way for me before, going back to hometown and seeing the KL jam there. It's like half the Pearl Of The Orient is filled with cars wth registration plates starting with "W" ( W is cars from Kuala Lumpur). This is year is one of the two years I do not have that privilege to see that. Instead of going back to hometown, hometown came to us. Haha.
How would you know when...the CNY holidays are over?
It is when you can't wake up in the morning
Yeap.. after a week of waking up when it is way past lunch time, waking up when the chickens crow is something very difficult to pick up again. It's when you've set the alarm at 7am and you procastinate for about an hour before you really get up to prepare yourself to go to work and when you do get up, you feel like going back to bed.
How would you know...when the CNY holidays are over?
It's when all the delicious home cook food and the family dinner at a fancy restaurant is all over and gone(pic stolen from my brother Marcus)
Ahhhh... Food...Glorious Food....Nothing beats the home cook food of the Chinese New Year Holidays. Many of us had home cooked food for one night that lasts for a whole week. Not forgetting the countless times of the ever so famous "Family Dinner At A Fancy Restaurant" sessions where we all talked, laughed and poke fun at each other.
How would you know when... the CNY holidays are over?
It's when you have taken the annual family portrait
Family portraits...an imagery update of how each and everyone of us has grown, be it vertically or horizontally. Images like these will be those where it will be looked back at in the future and probably have a good time laughing about how young, how tall, how short and how fat we have grown to be and the occasional how "handsome" & "beautiful" we used to be. Haha.
How would you know when....the Chinese New Year holidays are over?
How would you know?
Caught Off Guard And Stunned
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Vegas
by The Crystal MethodSix days of Chinese New Year has passed us, and it gets hotter and hotter by the day. It's been a long time since I last saw the sun shine this bright, the sky so clear and so blue. Today is one morning in, hmmm... I can't remember, it's been too long since the last time I had this feeling. For the first time in...well again, I can't remember, I woke up not having this lousy feeling and not asking myself
" Damn... I gotta go work again? " instead I wake up feeling good about the day that is coming. I actually had a smile on my face this morning then I woke up to prepare myself to get to work. Everything felt right, the bath was good..chilly and refreshing..even starting my car this morning felt right...no more crankling noise from my wheels, my power window is working again and the traffic is still very beautiful..smooth, no jams, no
"professional drivers". For the first time in...well I can't remember again... I manage to get to the office before half past eight.
So there we were 5 of us including my boss, sitting at the mamak stall, reading the papers, having our cup of tea but no conversations. How ironic..still I have the good feeling in me since I woke up. We went into the office, did a little cleaning up and straight away I jumped on to the internet the minute I finished my
"Office Chores". Did some mail checkings, chatting and MP3 searching as well, but the good old tummy had a calling to the gent's and scurried furiously towards it and...well you would not want to know the details would you...
So I was in the gent's ...well doing the you know what...for like 10 minutes or so, and with the sigh of relief I came out feeling tummy good again and my boss told us...
"You can go home now.." I was actually stunned for like 5 minutes before it really dawned upon me that he really was not joking...I had the chic to ask why..really funny isn't it...just an advice...whenever your boss lets you go home early...never never never ask for a reason...just
GO!!....well the original plan was that we come back early to listen to what my boss has in plan for all of us and the future of the new company...but I guess that plan didn't work out and he ended up going fishing with 2 other colleagues..
So that is somewhat my
"stunning" start for the year of the dog. I suppose things will be getting better. I am still keeping my fingers crossed though. Well I guess I have to live through the days and tell you next time in the future whether it's been going really good or not. I guess you would have to be as patient as I am too huh...Hehe
Some Good Laughs
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Renee Olstead
by Renee Olstead
Third day of CNY...well nothing much has happened the past 2 days except for the family gathering and spending time with love ones.. but today was really a good day as me and Matt together with a bunch of buddies went to play Counter Strike... the all time favourite game among these people and myself too. I spent most of my time laughing so hard that either winning or dying does not even matter anymore. Whenever I go gaming with friends, the thing I enjoyed most is seeing how silly and dumb can my playmates get...seeing how they get killed. We were like the loudest in a room where there weren't any speakers blasting the sounds from the computer.
Gaming though is a trend right now for every computer buff. Some play for fun, some play to check out the game, some even take it as a professional career. For me, gaming is a form of stress relief. It's not merely bout the game itself, but it is how you play the game, and how the acts of others tickles your heart. When you play a game, sometimes you stumble upon many things you could never imagine can be done..
I still remember during my student days, me and bunch of guys, regular gaming kaki's, would just go play for hours. These few hours are the hours where you can find lots of laughing, lots of swearing as well and lots of sub-conscious bonding among guys/boys. I remember there are a few occasions where we even played like from 7pm right till 7am the next morning. Thus came the term "main sampai bodoh". Imagine 8 guys after a session of pc gaming ( back then was either "Red Alert" or "Star Craft" ) at the makak, looking stoned. Now that is something which we all called a "Kodak Moment". It's like we all want to talk bout the game we played, how we strategize, how much we built, how we died, how stupid did the enemy get with words like "how come cannot click on my man wan?" or " Spy La Tu " and also played till the whole server hanged but we just could not because our eyes were glued to the 17 inch monitor for like 7 to 8 hours straight sometimes more, concentrating on the building and the killing which made us all STONED...Had a lot of laughs...
Now..those days are gone. With some people married, some getting married, a lot of us having girlfriends, all of us working long hours...we just can't seem to find the time to get together and play anymore. I will never forget those days of fun and laughter.
Gaming I suppose does wonder to us guys. It creates a bond without us knowing it. Helps makes new friends as well and...and... it is a damn good stress relief activity. Trust me.. try going there when you had a bad day at work or at college or anywhere.. after a few hours playing with some friends, you will come out with a smile on your face.
After all laughter is and has always been the best medicine for everyone in the whole wide world. Don't you agree?
